I want to follow-up from yesterday’s thoughts and continue in the same direction. I was intrigued by Job’s verses on searching for God in all directions. It seemed peculiar to me, so I thought it was probably a common phrase or thought process for the people of that time. The verses I’m referencing are 8 and 9.
“Behold, I go forward but He is not there, And backward, but I cannot perceive Him; 9 When He acts on the left, I cannot behold Him; He turns on the right, I cannot see Him.
Job 23:8-9 NASB
Some translations read east, west, north, and south. This would have been a metaphor for the fact that Job cannot find God anywhere. By his perception, God has vanished or hidden Himself. The ever-present God (as Psalms would describe Him) cannot be felt. Have you ever thought this about God?
I can remember experiencing a dark time in my ministry career when I had to step out of a job without really knowing what I was going to do next. I knew my time at my current position was over, but I wanted something firm lined up for an easy transition. I had been in talks with an opportunity, but there were no guarantees.
I ended up stepping away from ministry and working a manual labor job in which I had zero experience. There is absolutely nothing wrong with a manual labor job, but again, I had never worked a job like this one in my entire life. It was a difficult transition and a new learning experience. I wanted to be in ministry but felt like God had removed me without providing a new opportunity.
I can remember calling Hank during this time and complaining to him. “I can’t feel God!… He’s gone silent!… I have no direction!” Now, it seems a little over-dramatic, but at the time, it was brutal. I wrestled so much with why I had to be in this place of limbo. In a very small way, I felt like Job. My prayers seemingly were going unanswered and my dream of being back in ministry seemed far away.
It would be in these moments where I would learn to lean more heavily on Him. Through it all, I was determined not to walk away. I searched for Him more deeply. I longed for direction and something tangible to give me purpose. Today, I believe that this venture was necessary for me in order to gain trust in the Lord.
Maybe you need to hear this today? Maybe you have been feeling like God has gone silent? Maybe God’s distancing from you reflects His trust in you as His own child, becoming relentless in your quest to find your Heavenly Father? Though Job faces darkness before Him, He is not destroyed!
God has made my heart faint; the Almighty has terrified me. 17 Yet I am not destroyed by the darkness, by the thick darkness that covers my face.
Job 23:16-17 HCSB